How
Candidasa became a great devotee of the Lord
Candidasa coined a mantra which is even
today used by worshippers of Durgadevi: dhanang deji roopang dehi
roopa-pati-bhaajang dehi. "O worshippable Mother Durgadevi, please give me
wealth, strength, fame, a good wife and so on." So Candidasa was engaged
in Durga worship, and naturally when one worships Durga, so much material
facility. He had a big garden, and a palace. Candidasa's brother was a Vaisnava
engaged in salagram worship. Vaisnavas were generally quite poor. The Vaisnava
brother had a salagram, but he had no flower to offer. So he would look in his brother's garden, and
he would lust over it. "So many
flowers, and my salagram gets no flower."
One day while he was looking at the garden, he mentally offered a flower
from that garden to his salagram. And
somehow or other, Candidas picked the very same flower the next day, and he
offered to Candi. Immediately she appeared.
"I am pleased with you, Candidas.
What benediction do you want?"
Candi said, "Wait, every day I am worshipping you. Why today have you suddenly become
present? Tell me that."
"Because," she said, "You have offered me the flower which has
been offered to Salagram, and that it is prasadam. By seeing that prasadam flower I became
pleased, so I appeared before you."
"But if salagram is superior to you," Candidas said, "Why
did you not tell me, stupid Candidas, why are you worshipping me? You should worship Salagram." So Candi said, "Well you never asked me
who was Supreme. Did you ever ask
me? I would have given you reply. I know who is Supreme, Krsna is Supreme, and
Salagram is the worshippable object, not me.
But because you were at least worshipping me, so I thought I would train
you in worship. And then you find out who
is to be worshipped, then you will actually worship properly." So Candidas when he heard this, said,
"I'm really sorry that I've wasted my life. Please excuse me, I'm going to worship
Salagram. Is that alright?" No no, I'm happy! Go worship Salagram," Candi said. And then in lamentation, Candidas wrote many
songs, and Caitanya Mahaprabhu used to listen to these songs and get ecstasy.